Coming Clean

It has been 3 months since Cole has been born, and I feel like I have had some issues ever since. Somedays I feel great, but there are somedays where it hits me like a ton of bricks. I know I'm not depressed, but mabye a touch of the "baby blues". Like yesterday I had planned to go eat with Jeremy and I didn't want to go, I called him, told him I didn't want to go, he questioned me about it and I couldn't give him a reason why I didn't want to go I just didn't, well he put a guilt trip on me, so I forced myself to go, I actually felt better after I got out of the house.

There has been alot more situations than that. Somedays I won't even answer my phone, I don't want to talk to anyone, I can't give a reason why either. Somedays I will run all over town and be in the best mood, and then there are days where you would think Amanda has disappered off of the face of the earth, because I go into hiding.

I did go to my all natural doctor and he did say I am having some hormone issues again, so hopefully what he has given me will help me soon. I am going to try to have more "me" time, because I think part of it is that I am just tired, and I am surrounded by kids 24/7. My husband always puts in atleast a 60 hour week and I live near no one, except my father, but he has a life now so I can't always be on his doorstep.

I also have had so many changes all in one year I had a baby, my oldest son had to start kindergarten, an old friend died, and my grandfathers situation has gotten worse. This is probally normal.

Well on a happy note..... Jeremy and I are going out Sunday night to the Marc Broussard concert and we are riding in a limo and we also snagged some meet and greet passes, so I am pretty excited about that.

I do have some prayer requests
Well apparently Me
My BFF for her knee
My inlaws are still gone
Jeremy's Grandma, she fell and hurt her knee and now she is in a wheel chair
My Grandfather
Our Nation, pray that the right one to lead our country gets the job.